Karmic North and South Nodes (Rahu and Ketu)

I'm so thankful for the self awareness and insights i gain thru the reflection of astrology.  I have so many influences and energies pulling me in different directions that knowing the best path to take would be extremely challenging without this invaluable tool of guidance. It's a very complex spiritual science but when in doubt can be easily broken down into the simple solution of aligning oneself with your karmic nodal axis. The North Node is the future; the direction the universe and your soul wants you to experience more of in this life; whereas the South Node is the energies of your ancient past which feels comfortable staying in, but often brings lack and discontent until balanced with the North Node which is unknown and uncomfortable yet ultimately leads to growth and consciousness expansion along with fulfillment based on your personal soul mission for this life influenced by decisions and karmic events of your past life.


When I place the current astrological transits into my birth chart, two different karmic nodal lines appear. The inside wheel is the line I was born with and will be true all my life whereas the outside wheel shows the current universal karmic nodal axis - what direction to take right now. I always follow both North Nodes. The universe will give you plenty of experiences to do so. But one of the most valuable lessons i've learned is that we must not totally abandon the South Node experiences but rather incorporate and balance with the North. Staying stuck in the past will always lead to discontent yet it does take bravery to follow the unknown North Node route. 
I have some once in a lifetime transits going on in many different areas of life for several years but this full moon has brought the North Node right to my sun; an 18 year cycle which means the universe is pushing me once again to evolve into my main purpose in this life as it did 18 years ago. At the same time Jupiter is t-squaring my natal Nodal karmic axis; a 12 year cycle which means forced expansion of past and future which is Taurus/Scorpio. I know how to do hard physical earth work which i made a lot of money doing in my last life but doesn't give me the same level of pleasure in this life so i've been totally embracing my North Node route which can be summed up to spiritual, emotional and psychological research done while in isolation but because it is the opposite of my past life earth energy, it's left me struggling to integrate myself into the physical life of being human this time around including embracing money, the five senses, pleasure, structure, stability, safety and security - basically lacking everything real world, leaving my life lopsided. Taurus 5th and 6th houses is what i know well and i must not push it away or i'll quickly fade away. Time for me to get my shit together while still giving myself plenty of time to research and study my Scorpio North Node route that dislikes anything superficial; wants commitment and loyalty - "all or nothing" energy. Of course with my sun (purpose) in all that Libra energy 10th and 11th houses i'm no doubt suppose to share that knowledge as a part of my vocation. Yet i need some grounded physical work as well to maintain balance between both. Coming to earth is about embracing everything it is to be human without judging it. Taurus the Resources sign isn't just about making money and experiencing pleasure. Our shell, the earth has given us everything we need already but all depends on what each person values the most. For me i can be a rich man by keeping things simple and embracing all the free resources mother earth has provided without having to pay a damn thing to the empire. 
In conclusion this karmic activation is leading me to balance my karmic axis of past and future in a new way i've never perceived before which will manifest within the next few years at which time i should have finally found long term physical, mental, spiritual and emotional stability while still embracing change and the unknown. At least i'll die trying which could very well be a part of my destiny.